Argh...
...so I haven't posted anything in a LONG time and some of you have probably been wondering if I am still alive. I am. But I really hate sitting at computers in freezing cold basements; that's why I have not posted - that and the fact that I'm still not really "structured" in my life at the moment.
I can hardly believe that it's been two months since arriving back in Canada. Some might say I've adjusted back to Canadian life well, but I still feel a serious lack of direction in what I should be doing with my life. But here's some irony - just in case you thought I'd had enough of teaching English to Korean students - I'm teaching English to Korean students in Chilliwack 4 nights a week! How funny is that?!
So what else have I been doing since coming home? I think a list may be more effective than a large, run on sentence:
-seeing my wonderful boyfriend!
-looking for a job
-looking for a car
-spending time with my family (some good, some challenging, but families usually come with both!)
-hanging out with my boyfriend! (His name's Sean.... for those of you who know I have a boyfriend but may not remember his name)
-going to Starbucks for 1/3 of the price of Korean Starbucks! AND NOW THEY HAVE PEPPERMINT MOCHAS MY MOST FAVOURITE DRINK! (Hey, I just realized, I can actually spell words like 'colour' and 'favourite' the Canadian way! WOO HOO!)
-seeing friends (though not as many as I had hoped to by now)
-shopping for new clothes to replace all the tattered garments that the superriffic Korean washing machines have ruined (but I'm most definately not complaining!)
-trying to get used to eating Canadian food (the one negative of coming home! It's all so cheesy and saturated with dairy, that I think I actually have food allergy's...but I really won't go into details as to why I am suspicious about that!)
-doing some piano accompaniment (it actually makes me very happy to be playing the piano again!)
-Going on dates with Sean! (By the by... I'm expecting a very large "Christmas present" this year!!!! Anyone guess what it might be? I'll keep you posted!)
-and... looking for more jobs and more cars
I think that about sums it up. Obviously, it's a lifestyle that is a lot more relaxing! I enjoyed a whole month of NOTHING! (Besides going to the gym... which I've been getting lazy about recently, but next week is always a new chance to pick it up again!)
Some really good job opportunities have come up and I am having a difficult time trying to decide which one would be "best" for me. I feel that I could benefit, for myself and for others, at both jobs, but it's so hard to choose! (I'll give you more details as plans unfold.)
Life, I've realized lately, is NOT about answers! So, my lesson since coming home is to worry less - about money, about relationships, about time - knowing that everything has a way of working itself out, wheather it's what you expected or not! As I ponder (now there's a good word!) the pace of life Koreans live, and the ever increasing life of the average Canadian, I am hoping to start a new trend... not of laziness, or slack, but affirming, to myself and others, that going here and there and having no time for yourself, or the ones you love, is really silly! So this is what I want my life to look like:
-A job that pays well and that I'm happy/content with
-Work hard for a while and pay off the rest of my retarded loans in 4 more years (5 MAX.)
-Enjoy events (on a monthly??? basis, otherwise it gets too busy) like concerts, plays, movies, hikes (maybe), eating new foods
-Sleeping in on Saturdays, followed by a leisurely brunch, making phone calls to friends far away, reading a good book, going for a walk, visiting (occasionally) with family and friends
-Going to Church on Sundays (hopefully a Church that I enjoy - but that's another story in itself), spending the afternoos playing games in the winter, going for walks in the fall, hikes and road trips in the spring, and beaches and bbq's in the summer
-Making the time, and saving, so I can fulfill my urge to travel and explore so much of this beautiful world
-And finally, living all of this with a good man at my side! (Hee Hee! Sorry for the cheesiness!)
Apparently I like lists today. I know this one seems a little more "full" than a simple life, but everything is in moderation. I want to be able to have the kind of life where you come home from work, you sit down with your family and have an enjoyable and relaxing meal, without worrying about where you have to be next, and what person needs to take what kid (obviously looking way into the future here, but still applicable to our idea of time) where for what practice. I just don't see the point in wearing yourself out for other people. If you're tired, you're tired and you should say "no" to a million and one things that may "require" your attention. Saying "no" to people without letting them make you feel guilty for wanting time by yourself. (Ha! I realize I'm being somewhat of a hypocrite, looking at my schedule and realizing I don't have a free weekend until AFTER January! YUCK!) Like I said, this is what I WANT my life to look like, not what it currently is at the moment.
Well, there's a little ramble about my life, settling back into the Canadian ways.
Keep commenting, I will check them, and I will make updates to my blog!
And for the sake of visual stimulation, since we all know that reading isn't any fun with out pics, I'll throw some pics on here of random stuff... just for fun! There! That ought to hold you over for a while! These are just some random snaps since I've been home!
posted by Esul... morning dew @ 10:28 a.m.
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